Poem 18

It has been a minute since I wrote a poem, and this is one I have been playing around with for a few days now. It is messy, and the more I tried to clean it up, the more I realized I don’t WANT to clean it up.

It is a stream of consciousness, showcasing what it is like to live with a chronic illness. It is messy… It is not neat. It does not have any given order of events.

And so here is my poem.

I hope you enjoy it, and I would love to hear your thoughts.

Beautiful Day

It was a beautiful day-

Until it was not.


But once I found a way to cope,

I discovered there is always hope.

There is no way to prepare

For something like a medical scare.

If I had done this,

Or if I had tried that,

Would never change the fact

That I am who I am,

And I have what I have.

I am growing and trying to understand

How to live my best life

And fight as hard as I can.

It gets easier

To come to terms

With having a chronic diagnosis.

But the first day is not so easy

Because it holds all the unknowns

All the fears

And the tears

And the cries

And the screams

And the desire to run

And the punch to the gut.


It was the saddest day of all-

Until it was not.


So how do I cope 

And continue with hope?

I smile and know

I still have my thoughts.

I count all my blessings and

Take noting for granted.

It is a gift to walk;

It is a gift to have sight;,

It is a gift to have a roof over my head;

I sleep in a warm bed.

Because even with the unknowns,

I can smile

And laugh

And hug

And listen

And sing

And dance

And breathe in and out.

Because at the end of the day, I am alive.


And I have learned

Even the saddest day of all is a beautiful day.


To read a previous poem I wrote in relation to my multiple sclerosis journey, CLICK HERE.


To read my short-read memoir, You Don’t Look Sick, CLICK HERE to purchase on Amazon today!

You Don’t Look Sick currently has FIVE STARS on Amazon!

You never know what battle someone is fighting.

Published by Kristen Dutkiewicz

I am a an author, recently releasing six short-reads/novellas on Amazon, including my short read memoir about my journey with multiple sclerosis. I live in a suburb of Philadelphia with my fiance and two cats. When I am not writing, you can find me either exercising or reading!

3 thoughts on “Poem 18

  1. Splendid poetry embracing a joy-filled optimism of life, recognizing that there are many things of which to be grateful, to celebrate, despite challenges present. Thank you for sharing, Kristen ~ have a lovely day 🙏😊


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